Taking a Break

I am going to take a break for awhile, as J and I have to deal with some life altering (not so good) events. Thank goodness, we have each other to get through this.

By Bex on April 12, 2008 9:57 PM | Permalink | Comments (41) | TrackBacks (0)

Expectations

There are certain things in life we expect to happen. We may say 'If it happens, it happens', but you and I both know, we all expect it.

I feel most expect, at least some of these things: to grow up, have fun, meet someone, get married, buy a home, have children, go places, have parties, and just be. We all expect to continue breathing...

What we don't expect are those things that mess up these plans. I'm not thinking of those minor life curve balls. It's those big ones, the ones that really alter the course of your life.

I pray and hope that I don't have to go my cousins wedding and funeral within 6 months of each other. My cousin, Jake, recently got married, went to Iraq for 5 months, came home and found out he has germ cell cancer. He had a tumor the size of a brick taken out of his abdomen. He's 26. It doesn't look good.

He's a tough kid, but heck, what are you meant to do when this comes up out of the blue? My Aunt, Uncle and cousin (Jake's parents and brother) were here in Colorado a few weeks ago, when Jake first went into the hospital. I tried to reassure my Aunt that it was probably nothing big and it wasn't cancer. I didn't know what else to say? How do you say 'Everything will be fine' when you know deep down something is very wrong?

I also have a dear Uncle who has been battling Cancer for almost 2 years now and it's not improving. It's so hard to watch and hear about the struggle.

This makes all the 'health' issues that James and I have been dealing with just so simply pale in comparison. I blame ... I think ...what if I/we had done this? What if we went to Church more than once a year, would God be happy with us? What if I ate healthier? What if I didn't have that last drink? What if .... What if it all really goes south? Then what do we do?

These expectations are breaking and how do we get back to them?

Jake and Uncle Don, we pray for you. I wish I could do more than just cry and pray. I've cried enough recently and I just want you both to be wonderfully happy and healthy again.

Peter, David and Jake

By Bex on March 26, 2008 7:58 PM | Permalink | Comments (0) | TrackBacks (0)

Seriously, Exhausted.

All this running about, getting sick, keeping busy, doing things and such is making me one tired girl. I had really hoped that this weekend I'd get some more tall stories/comments posted and the new tall comment calendar up...

Alas, no such luck. Although, I am now officially a Godmother. Yup, my littlest nephew Ethan is my godson. As he is being raised Catholic, I participated in my first mass and Catholic baptism. Such a fuss really!! Walking up and down, doing crosses in his forehead, lots of water pouring, candle lighting and presenting the Father with gifts (communion). But overall, little Ethan was a good 'en and behaved. Sadly, I think the camera only lasted for one photo, which I haven't even seen yet.

Wallpaper is another reason for this exhaustion. It's taken me almost a month now to get all that shit off the walls. And this room only has four of them.

Lots of going out with p-a ... going to Sushi Den soon I believe...

Anyway, that's it for now, just to let you (few) know I am still breathing.

By Bex on February 26, 2008 6:57 PM | Permalink | Comments (1) | TrackBacks (0)

Let.Me.Eat.

In at attempt to do something different and be a little (tall) social butterfly, I've been going out. A bit. Usually, on the nights when the hubs is playing tennis with the club.

I've been eating, a lot. Not that I don't normally eat but not to this excess. The other week P-A (along with a bunch of others) went to Nine 75. It was ok. The best part of the evening was having two lovely The Cloud nine drinks. This drink comes with a side of cotton candy, which you drop into the glass and thus melts. It's really a neat idea and very tasty.

I probably wouldn't go back though. The food, really, not the greatest.

Last Thursday, just P-A and I went to Bloom. Now this was delish. The Flirtini went down, way too easily and the Bars of Sin.

Oh.My.God. One of the best desserts I've had in a really long time.

Next week, it's off to the Kabob Station for a bit of Middle Eastern tastiness.

Surprisingly, not a single person commented on the height thing. Well, none that I could hear at least.

... hungry ...

By Bex on February 13, 2008 8:44 PM | Permalink | Comments (1) | TrackBacks (0)