When you come to the end of your rope …
When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on.
— Franklin D. Roosevelt
First off, Happy Birthday to me! I am 21 … for the 7th time. Sweet.
Yesterday, had a mini-breakdown. I’m not scared to admit it; I really just had a meltdown. This meltdown also involved eating 4; yes FOUR, Swiss Cake rolls, half a bag of Maltesers and several other things which aren’t so good for you.
What brought all this on, you ask? Here, I’ll list them
1. I was turning a year older tomorrow (which is now today)
2. Health issues waying on my mind
3. Dealing with the new car – insurance, loans, etc etc
Oh yeah, number one, huge reason, found out that we lost a very important contract at work. What does this mean for me and my job? Well, it’s all up in the air. After 7 years, I am quite comfortable here and a. don’t want a new position b. don’t want to work for a new company c. don’t want a new job, period.
I panic, when I receive this new. I call James immediately and tell him to STOP and not mail off the paperwork for this fancy new $70k car. Just hold off until I am home and we can talk about this. Sadly, we decided to hold off on the car. I felt horrible. I really think my Hubs deserves something nice for himself. He gives me so much and rarely gets anything nice for himself. When he does, it’s because I nagged him half-to-death to get it. I suppose, it’s probably better not to be paying $1050 a month for a car, when I am unsure of my job. I was still sad. Hubs took it well and said yes, he was disappointed but there will be other cars. What a good guy. I love him.
I was ready to cancel my little Birthday gathering for Saturday – most people are out of town and I just felt blah. I talked with Kath, who being the great, wonderful, amazing friend and person that she is, said a party should still be had. She graciously assisted with the invites – despite most everyone being gone. But honestly, I just want to drink, hang out with my good friends (whoever is able to make it) and just relax. Or try to.
I love Kath. She’s awesome. Don’t worry James, I love you too :)
The girls at work today decorated my desk and brought in tons of yummy food. I have great co-workers too. Really, I am a lucky girl.
I am hanging onto that knot, tightly and not ready to let go, just yet.
Comments
Happy Birthday to YOU!!
It will ALL work out! And celebrate today for all you can...birthdays are a good thing! So is cake and yummy food.
And margarita's! Your first one Sat is on me :-)
Love you honey!
Kath xoxo
Posted by: Kath | April 26, 2007 12:14 PM